Monday, October 12, 2009

What to do...

So I just found out that there is a new outdoor recreation center opening at CSU next semester and they are currently accepting applications. This could have worked out PERFECTLY! I was considering doing the outdoor adventure guide thing at Pikes Peak which would've made me extremely qualified to work there. And all of that would also correlate with my upcoming major-Natural Resource Tourism- which I think would also correlate with the fact that I want to do Americorps. Oh and I would have completed a few more things from my list (i.e. kayaking or rock climbing). So basically, it all could've worked out quite well....but instead I'm taking dumb required classes and working at Edible Arrangements.
I just want things to start working out finally. I wish I wasn't so indecisive but I feel like I am because I want everything to be great, and if one thing isn't great then I go looking for something better. For example...I currently love my job and love living with my sisters and I love a lot of other stuff about the Springs. BUT the school situation isn't too great so now I'm packing up and moving back north.
And I wanna be around people who wanna do stuff I wanna do. Sure my sisters and I are a lot alike...but I want to get more into all the stuff I mentioned before with the eco outdoor kinda stuff. They're not really into that. lol. And yet again I don't know if I should be doing indoor because it will take up so much time but it has nothing to do with what I'm planning on doing with my life.
Hmph...I'm happy now, I just feel like I'm not getting anywhere and I'm not sure how to make it better...I keep waiting for the next thing to happen in my life but it never turns out like I expect.