64. Learn to Hula -Done :)

Where to begin?

Why why WHY am I in this place again?! I can only be content with my decisions for a very short amount of time, and as soon as they start unfolding I rethink the entire situation. And it feels like every given week at least one part of my life is at the point where I change my mind. I can't be too upset about this because I feel like lately I have been changing my mind to make the right choices. I am super happy with where I am headed (the parts that I've decided on at least). I got way too much partying out of my system so I can relax that I won't be making those bad decisions again. I'm also SO glad that I am doing blue knights again. I really do enjoy being around everyone there and I just love playing music. Along with that I'm excited (and proud) that I have been practing more than I ever have before and it is no longer a huge chore. However, this rekindled love of music is causing my dilema. Yet again, I am really drawn towards being a music major. I am currently enrolled to attend CSU in the spring as a Natural Resource Tourism major. Recently I have been hoping that I could double major with that and music....but honestly, that does not sound like the best thing to begin half way through my sophomore year. I spoke my my advisor today and he let me know that my hopeful plan would be a very daunting and time consuming task. I do like college but I would like to graduate eventually lol. So, why don't you just change majors, you may ask. Well, being a music major requires an audition and it's already November. I don't think I can audition and be accepted as a music major for the spring semester. (Although I really do need to stop assuming and talk to Hollenbeck about it.)-WHOA....maybe I should just go to metro/UCD....new plan to think about.... Anyways- I am done with my core credits so I can't just attend CSU this spring and start music in the Fall, I need classes to take in January. And I can't just not go to school because I currently have a house that I need to pay rent for until May and the only way thats happening is if I'm in school, and I'm not even living here after December. ugh. I can't even type all the contributing factors, it's so ridiculous.
Ok well I guess I have a new option now. I can move in with Allison and go to Metro or UCD for music.
Benefits-close to BK, music major, many of my friends are in the area
Negatives- I wanted to help out with LHS indoor...kinda far, I'll have 2 rents to pay(my dad will pay one though...just kinda dumb still), it's not CSU
I feel like this option may lead to me transfering again....to CSU at some point. but maybe not. I really just need time to not be in school (CRAP! I just realized Metro/UCD would also require applying to the school duh!). So now I really just need to take a semester off since I'm so far from making any decisions, but if I'm not in school I will have to pay rent so I would have to stay in Colorado Springs since I can't pay 2 rents on my own but I dont want to stay down here cuz it's so far from BK! I'm so stuck......I don't even know where to begin....